Paradox
I’ve come to realize that my life is quite the paradox and full of contradictions. For example, take a look at this picture:
 
I’m on the road again and this evening I went out for a wonderful sushi dinner with some good friends and colleagues and then I went back to my room, snuggled up to blog, and began to enjoy this nighttime snack – a Sobe Lean with a Hershey’s Bar – does it get any better than that?
I have found my life to be so full of contradictions right now – very much the paradox. I yearn for the solitude of quiet times at home and yet I thrive on the chaos and the pressure of work and travel. I desperately want more communications and more time spent in interactions with others, and yet, I fear more time being spent in communications and more time spent in interactions with others thus giving me even less time for other things – so few hours in a day. I want to eat right, work out harder, and lose weight, and yet I schedule meetings at multiple meals per day, sucking down way too many calories and mitigating any exercise that I may be doing. I work harder right now and get much less done.  I challenge folks to tighten their focus and write shorter emails and yet I continue to be verbose and carry on at length on any particular topic. I pay for the Wall Street Journal on line and yet I prefer to read the paper edition. And I know I need lots more sleep and yet I stay awake late into the nights thinking of so many things and spending some of that time getting my therapy on this blog.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if just for some specific period of time my life was in complete harmony and there were no contradictions. I’m thinking that would either be nirvana or completely unacceptable. There’s something magical about the tension that comes from paradox. Is it possible to thrive on that tension and yearn for contradictions?